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Video: Traverse the Void to Enter the Light Click READ MORE to launch the video Traverse the Void to Enter the Light I entered Goddess I Am and settled into my chair for Friday morning's meditation. The room was different: Beth had recently renovated, and the area was almost double its original size. As soon as I took a seat, I saw pale blue wisps of energy, floating from above like feathers. I took a deep breath and realized I already felt lighter. I understood that this gentle, loving energy that permeated the air was in preparation for the meditation. It was preparing us, but for what? As the energy wafted downward, I understood we were being called. It was the divine, beckoning us to release lower vibrational frequencies. I felt flutters in my stomach and tingles across various parts of my body. I understood this was awakening lower energies as they prepared to release into these newer, softer fields. This was a familiar feeling. Often the meditations I attend result in rele...

Goddess I Am February 14, 2020 I arrived twenty minutes early for Friday morning’s meditation. I sat in the empty room, turned my phone to airplane mode, and pulled out my journal. Within seconds, gentle waves of pink and green entered from the ceiling and twirled about the room like a slow-motion whirlwind. I smiled: the angels had arrived. Since my spontaneous opening to spirit in August 2013, I’ve come to identify pastel pink and green energies as the telltale sign of angels. I thought it so appropriate for them to arrive this morning since today is Valentine’s Day, the universal day of love.  A message arrived, and  no one else was in the room at this time, it addressed those who would attend: February 14, 2020 Feel your hearts open as we flood the room with divinity. Soak in these higher vibrational frequencies.  Open your hearts for the veil lifts during this divine day. Be aware of your surroundings as loved ones who have slipped beyond the ...

Click READ MORE to launch the video. Goddess I Am: Crown of Spirit October 11, 2019 During the weekly mediation at Goddess I Am, Beth began the mediation with an etheric cord cutting. Using a piece of selenite shaped like a knife, Beth "cut" energy threads from the fronts, backs, and tops of each mediation participant. As soon as she finished, she sat down and began the meditation. Cord cuttings are powerful, and I always feel an unburdening when I have them. This time, as I closed my eyes, a brilliant flash of light came from the palms of my hands. It resembled beams from a strong flashlight. The message began:   October 11, 2019 As you walk the path of life, your lights shine. Remain clear with your intentions. Be ye pure of heart, and guidance will unfold in a manner perfect for you. Trust. Know that angelic energies surround you, protect you. Live within the heart space.   With these last words, I saw brilliant diamonds form over the heads of each participant. As my per...

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The Angel of Peace: December 2018.    I drove to the Church of Spiritual Light to attend their twice-monthly Crystal Bowl/Reiki service . After miles of slow and sometimes bumper-to-bumper traffic, I arrived at this interfaith, all faith church that had become my home away from home. I nestled into a lounge chair that I made more comfortable with a pillow and blankets from home. As is often the case, visions and messages began prior to the meditation. I opened my journal to document the production playing within my mind’s eye. Delicate sheets of pink threads drifted from above. Except for the color of the filaments, it looked like spun silk from an enormous floating spider’s web. The church’s dimmed lighting pierced the pastel gossamer strands, casting mesmerizing dancing shapes of light on the wall as endless layers sank into the room. I took a deep breath and descended into an exquisite wave of energy that washed over me. The vibrations emanating from the web were unmistakab...

Sunshine      In October 2013, I received messages from various star systems. They referenced the sun and how it was going through a transition. They said that they had given our sun a different set of energies to help with the healing process for Mother Earth. Below are some of the messages I received:   Photo by Linda Becker We have given these energies directly to our sister star, what you refer to as your sun. Your sun’s rays have changed. There are seven new levels of energy that have not been present in the past. These new rays are needed in Mother Earth’s transition. These rays will jump-start her into a new phase of being. This new phase is one of purity, clarity, hope, and health. As she moves through her transition, she brings the human race along with her.   The seven subsets within each ray act as a bridge to connect each frequency to the next. At the top of the frequency band, these vibratory energies arc to the next ray. If one wer...

Goddess I Am Meditation: 11-30-18 Spinning Top I entered the meditation room before anyone else, and immediately the messages began to flow. I felt damp, and I realized a fine haze permeated the room. As I looked up, I discovered the source: holy water drifted down like a gentle mist from the ethers above. Words began to flow into my awareness: Time is approaching when many upon the Earth plane will celebrate the masters of their religions. Hearts are softened, creating openings for love to pour in and pour forth.  Bring together the sacred energies of the holy ones that you celebrate this time of year. Their energies consist of vibrations that are subtle and sublime, like that fine mist that covers this room.   As you allow the holy ones into your energy field, you become lighter—a bit of enlightenment begins to seep into your divine nature. At this point, I saw the mist begin to encircle each participant until they were wrapped in this soothing bubbl...

Goddess I Am Meditation: 11-23-2018 Luminosity (Inner States: Dawning of Awareness) We meditated to a selection called  Luminosity , a Hemi-Sync product voiced by Patty Ray Avalon. Luminosity, Light, Lightworkers. Nikola Tesla said, “If you want to find the secrets of the universe, think in terms of energy, frequency, and vibration.”  Everything is energy. Thoughts, emotions, and light are all energy and they just as real as physical objects; they only differ in their vibration. The vibration of light is subtler than the dense energy of the chair or floor, but when we increase our luminosity, we find that our lives can change. We see with different senses. We feel more fully. We begin to experience beyond what our five physical senses measure. We become “enlightened.” Things are changing. Our Earth is transitioning and bringing the human race along with her. There are new lightworkers in Earth. Many are being called to be of service—a new step for them. Thi...

Goddess I Am, Pyramid Power: 11-09-2018 I walked into the meditation room at Goddess I Am. Beth had a copper pyramid that was in the center of the room. The energy vibrations from it brought a sense of excitement to the room. I could feel energy emanating from it as waves swished from above it as well as below. I began to feel energy moving from the pyramid’s base. It was as if a sheet of ice began to cover the floor.  I was sitting in one of the chairs that surrounded the pyramid. As I touched it with my bare feet, I felt tingling in my feet as the energy moved up through my body. It shot out through the top of my head, and then I heard the word “connection.” I had an understanding that this energy connected to the crystalline grid that covers Earth. I head the following message: You are the connectors to help Mother Earth while she transcends into a new dimensional space. This place (referring to Goddess I Am) is bringing a stronger vibration into its core as it ...

Church of Spiritual Light: 11-05-18 A Different Type of PodCast I entered the room for the mediation and discovered things had been rearranged. The crystal bowls were now located in the very center of the room with the lounge chairs encircling them. I settled quickly and quietly into my chair. It seemed like it was just seconds later that the images began to form in my mind. Each lounge chair became a seed pod; it looked like a milkweed pod. There was an opening in the top of the pod, just a perfect amount of space for each person to settle into this cocoon-type pod. It was soft inside and I felt an almost-overwhelming sense of love, security, and protection while also feeling nourished.  I had a realization as I heard the words “unity” and “wholeness” echo in my mind: this new circular arrangement of the room added to a sense of harmony and accord. There was now energy vibrational matching and completion that was not present before.  Even before the meditatio...

Church of Spiritual Light: 09-04-2017 I came across a notebook this weekend. As I thumbed through the pages, I realized I had documented some meditative experiences that I had not yet transcribed. This is one from September of 2017.  I had the following experience while at Crystal Bowl/Reiki Meditation at the Church of Spiritual Light in Fort Myers. I saw a shaman standing on top of a step pyramid in Mexico. In his right hand, he held a lightning bolt. He was summoning powerful energies from throughout the universe.  As this occurred, I saw a gentle rain fall on each person who was there for the meditation. As the Reiki Masters went to each person to administer healing, I felt as if a smooth, cold rock had been placed on the center of my forehead. I had the impression that it was rock from a riverbed, a rock that had been smoothed by racing waters for hundreds of years.  Several more minutes into the meditation, I felt this rock move up to the top of m...

Church of Spiritual Light: 10-01-18 Moments before the meditation began, I had a vision of a giant turtle, and I heard, “Turtle Island.”   Rebalance. This is balancing the very foundation of your soul. Just as a turtle crawls upon the Earth, dragging its massive belly, there is a constant tug and connection to the grounding energies of Mother Earth.  The turtle is sure of its path. Its movement may be slow, but it is sure of the path. Its movement is purposeful, directed, and full of intent.  I saw and felt a streak of light come from above and enter the top of my head. I felt as this massive energy pierced my body and reached my feet. I felt my body begin to melt, and soon within this vision, I had transformed into a what appeared to be a sheet of ice. Somehow, this was related the path of the turtle and the grounding energies to Mother Earth. I listened and felt the vibrations from the crystal bowls. After several minutes, I had a vision of Mot...